1Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.
2I sink in deep mire, where there is no foothold; I have come into deep waters, and the flood sweeps over me.
3I am weary with my crying; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God.
4More in number than the hairs of my head are those who hate me without cause; many are those who would destroy me, my enemies who accuse me falsely. What I did not steal must I now restore?
5O God, you know my folly; the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you.
6Do not let those who hope in you be put to shame because of me, O Lord God of hosts; do not let those who seek you be dishonored because of me, O God of Israel.
7It is for your sake that I have borne reproach, that shame has covered my face.
8I have become a stranger to my kindred, an alien to my mother’s children.
9It is zeal for your house that has consumed me; the insults of those who insult you have fallen on me.
10When I humbled my soul with fasting, they insulted me for doing so.
11When I made sackcloth my clothing, I became a byword to them.
12I am the subject of gossip for those who sit in the gate, and the drunkards make songs about me.
13But as for me, my prayer is to you, O Lord. At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love, answer me. With your faithful help
14rescue me from sinking in the mire; let me be delivered from my enemies and from the deep waters.
15Do not let the flood sweep over me, or the deep swallow me up, or the Pit close its mouth over me.
16Answer me, O Lord, for your steadfast love is good; according to your abundant mercy, turn to me.
(Psalm 69:1-16, NRSV)
The water is around my neck and I’m about to drown…
I have a fear of water. 2 years ago I did a dunk tank for the auction at the congregation I’m currently at and my anxiety level was through the roof. Even though I knew I could put my feet down and stand up just that feeling of going under the water at an uncontrolled time for me was super stressful.
You cry out for help and it seems it isn’t there, I get what David is saying here.
But do you see what David never losses?
He never loses hope. He says in verse 13 my prayer is to you God and I know you will answer me. You will not fail me. You will be helpful to me and come to my aid.
Do we have that hope in the darkness?