I don’t know about you, but this first month, which has spilled over into the second month of 2010 has been hectic. It seems I am running every where and doing everything and making progress but in the wrong direction. It seems for every step I take forward I am going backwards 4 or 5. Not good. It seems the stacks of paper are getting higher, and the mounds of work that need to be done are never ending and about to topple down upon me…
Last night my family and I watch Akeelah and the Bee. A wonderful movie about a girl who pulls together a community in the hopes of making it to the national spelling bee. As we watched this movie, Akeelah’s coach had her read a quotation. I pondered it all last night, and then this morning I was hit by my devotion. Isn’t it amazing how good God is, even when we think he is not around, he is always there, to give us the help we need and to show us the way.
My devotion this morning was on John 6:60-71, where Peter says, “Lord where would we go, you have the words of eternal life.” You have all that we could ever need. And then a reading from Andrew Murray about where are you running, or on what are you focusing… Are you running to Jesus, or away? Are you focusing on the piles of paper on your desk and the endless amount of work in front or you, or are you looking into the eyes of Jesus, knowing he has given you the tools to make it through everything that is before you. Jesus told us, “be of good cheer, for I have overcome the world.” The quote from Akeelah and the Bee is a quote from Marianne Williamson’s poem Our Deepest Fear. This poem I believe is a wonderful way to look at who we are, and who we should be. We are not to get bogged down in life, but live for the life that is in us, Jesus Christ. We have been given gifts to us, we are part of the puzzle, and we can not be less than who we are.
Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”