Because for me, living serves Christ and dying is even better. If I continue to live in this world, I get results from my work. But I don’t know what I prefer. I’m torn between the two because I want to leave this life and be with Christ, which is far better. However, it’s more important for me to stay in this world for your sake. I’m sure of this: I will stay alive and remain with all of you to help your progress and the joy of your faith, and to increase your pride in Christ Jesus through my presence when I visit you again. Most important, live together in a manner worthy of Christ’s gospel. Do this, whether I come and see you or I’m absent and hear about you. Do this so that you stand firm, united in one spirit and mind as you struggle together to remain faithful to the gospel. That way, you won’t be afraid of anything your enemies do. Your faithfulness and courage are a sign of their coming destruction and your salvation, which is from God. God has generously granted you the privilege, not only of believing in Christ but also of suffering for Christ’s sake. You are having the same struggle that you saw me face and now hear that I’m still facing. (Philippians 1:21-30, CEB)
There are some scholars who say that while Paul is in prison here, he is contemplating suicide.
If I continue to live in this world, I do things that help others see Christ and the love of God, because living serves Christ, but dying is even better. Because then I will be with Christ.
It is more important for me to stay here for you.
Paul wants to be with God, but knows he is needed here. He wants to go, but needs to stay.
Suicide is not an easy way out. It is a deep darkness that shows no other way. It is not cowardly or lame or easy.
Show love to everyone, because you have no idea what they are going through.
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